now...6.07am...i don't know why i feel unsleepy now..at the same time...i feel long long time i didn't post my life's diary d...ermm...im fine around this four weeks but exam is coming soon...but i didn't do any revision and not ready yet...i feel nervous...yes..im worry about my exam...but after i feel nervous and scare...i become back a lazy people...i also don't know why...haiz..!my friends always console and encourage me..i realize what they want me to be...and thank for them...but i really can't find out the right study way that suit me...i will finding it out...!!in this four weeks, my life happened many happening...got make me happy...sad...glad...disappointed...angry...cry...and other....but im still can take care of myself...im always telling myself that im strong...be a big boy...won't so easy to fall down...this three sentences round and round , repeat and repeat in my mind...and console myself...heee...
Yesterday , i went to ipoh shopping with sue...early of the trip..i felt happy ,exciting and laugh and laugh with her..no matter my wallet has left RM60...i know that there is not enough for me shopping...after we went back from ipoh...my wallet is empty...is really empty!!...i really feel so shame in front of a girl...and somemore i need to ask her to pay for me first....omg!!i don't like that feeling...i really feel sad and shame of myself...how can a boy be like that...others i don't know..but for me,i can't accept!!this is not a boy should be and this is not a girl should do...and i know that i will return back that i owe...i really uncomfortable to owe someone else's money...today i went to gym ...the first time i went to gym....i saw others dancing at there...they really cool!!im admire them...and by the time..i will also blame myself and my parents...myself-why i don't know any dance or any music knowledge...my parents-why they don't let me learning piano or any instruments...i know after i blame,i will become normal...ermm...other than drawing and singing...what else i can do?...what else so expert..?Nothing...really nothing...drawing-haha...can't fight with other people...im so poor of it!singing-hahaha....many and many people better than me ...and confident than me...i got my ambition ,my inspiration..but i do not have anything...i just can be a big boy...^^haha...later i will going back to hometown...and monday coming back to a boring place...well...luckily my house got online...so that,i can playing my notebook and waching movie...but where is my mickey mp3?my friend make me disappointed and i started do not believe with her d....she told me this week...ok..i wait...but finally...there is nothing on my table, on my hand...but im still waiting...Recently...i feel that a person makes me feel mad with the person self...because the person did something that i really cannot endure.but i hope that the person will know what the person did that is wrong....ok ...i got to sleep now...^^byebye...today will be a nice day...^^
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