A year For Us

2 days ago ~ i had a happiness day ...

That is my group(TB 5) photo shoot ...

yes !finally is our turn !!

I didn't have this such feeling since graduated after form 5 ...

This feeling is like so warm and funny ...

I Love Our Laughing Noise and Smile ...

Really appreciate that day we had ... Memorable~

One year for TB5 ..

One year we have ...

After this 7 weeks, somebody may going to another campus to continue their study ...

And it is the end for TB5 OF MAY INTAKE 2008 ...

is fast for a year pass by...

and we will be less to see each others ...

haha...maybe forget after 3 years ...

Thanks to you all for giving me a memorable and wonderful moment ...

i will appreciate it ...

Good Luck,my friends ...

Good Luck,TB 5 ...

(Here We Are ...TB5)

By aLLeN

2 days drawing i finished last weekend lastly...

hehe ~ actually i don't know what i draw ...

Just sketch and colour it ...

Im poor in drawing and colouring ... but i love drawing very much ...

i need to improve as well ...

hope my drawing have some good feedback by others and others will love it someday...

and this is what i want ... ^^ ...

and below is my drawing last weekend ... hehe~ ugly and uncreative picture ...

V

(Before edit ~ pure.)

(After edited ~ )

Mistiness : Killing : My Friend : Later

hmmm...feel so blue and blur today...

Don't know why... cant concentrate today ...

feel like something weighing on my mind ...

Is it something to happen ?

Blue and Blur ~~~~~~

I decided that i don't want to resit any subject ...

Thanks for my friend Grace, she told me the news before i pass up the form ...

If not, i will be very suffer in this semester...

But it not means that i can relax..! Nope...i need to put alot of effort on maths and psychology...

This two stiff subjects ... Killing me ...~~~~

I got a friend, he got gfriend d ...!!!

his gfriend looks like chubby and cute ...

like a HK actress when she smiles ...( from my side )

the girl treat my friend very well ...

hehe ~ if got chance i will post photo of them on my blog to you all ...

they look so sweet and happy ...

they will together for keeps ...

Bless them ~ god ...

Hope...

my family members good luck and healthy all the time ...

my buddies happy always and good luck on their exam ...!!

my Kaigor success be a manager and good luck ...

Thats all for now ...~

Jogging with sue later...

i hope the sun can shine like spotlight ... it hot like volcano ...

Don't rain now ~ pls ...

It's going to rain and dark ...

God bless ... Sun Shine !!

a Boy Be an Ami Lesson

2 am... but my drawing still not finish yet...
damn tired and sleepy...~~~
tomorrow have to continue my drawing ...
hmmm... don't know what should write...

Well,post something here...
a~Ha! How to be a good boyfriend ?hehe~ interested ?

I think that be a boyfriend...

1. Must knows what she thinking .
2. Must understand what she feeling .
3. Must forgive what she did wrong .
4. Must makes her happy always .
5. Must take care of her very well .
6. Must endure her temper .
7. Must gives her surprise sometimes .
8. Must realize why she sad and angry .
9. Must console and help her when she is in trouble .
10.Must fulfill what she wants and needs .

( This is some suggestion for those who are the first time be a good boyfriend.)

Who am I ?

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education:
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

The test is from agatha link...well...is it the real me..? X.X

I AM A ROGUE NOW

Wow!!! So afraid...ABOUT MY NEW HAIRSTYLE !

The stupid damned ugly hairstyle ...

I hate the hairstylist ...

Hate till want to burn her salon ...!

ARRRRHHHH.....!!!

She cut my hair till like "Dragon Ball" movie actor...

i thought im the actor of the movie ...

Walao ! damn ugly and stupid hairstyle...

im look like a rogue now!!

fucking stupid hairstylist : stupid hairstyle

i hate it !!!

omg !!

cant look like a good boy now...!! T.T

have to wax it till sharp... Vomit !!! like plug-ugly...

shitt !!! black list the salon ...!!!

THE FIRST TIME & THE LAST TIME !!

Annoying : Confusing : Fucked Up !!!!

I'm really annoying about some problem now !!

Don't know whether i want to resit the accounting paper or not !!

It makes me feel really fucked up today !!

What i decide and i will have a big different..

whether is Pass or Delay my degree...

If i take the accounting subject, i don't know whether i can handle it and others or not..!

but i will have more chance to take the good result if i really put 100% effort of it...

If i no take the accouting subject, i don't know whether this sem subject i can pass to 2.0 or not..!

But i can pay more attention on the two subjects to get a better result...

So, both benefit both disadvantage

and tomorrow i need to confirm it...

i can't make a right decision in this short time..

CAN GIVE ME SOME TIME TO THINK TWICE ?

Arhhhhhhh..................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Grrrrrrrrr.....................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Shuuutttttt..................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What the school is it? Stupid at all... absent brain...!!!

I'M So

ANNOYING n CONFUSING

&

FUCKED UP !!!

Intro a pretty girl~woohoo~~

Intro someone to you all...

Den Deng !!


she is my classmate...

she called Elaine..

she ar... hmmm... she is a girl that

very good

very friendly

very creative

very pretty

very kind

very girlish

very responsible

very hard-working

very confidence

very brave

very cute

very like to present

(she asked me to say good things of her...=.=)

add-on...

she is not so tall.. lolxxx...

she lives somewhere in perak...nearby kampar...you all guys know,right?


is it ok,elaine? satisfied my post huh..?

hehe~~

and here she is...(photo of her)...pretty huh..? guys..?



if who are interested , can contact me...

i can introduce to you all this pretty and cute girl...

First Class On Monday

Monday... is monday now...
feels like my sem break so fast pass by...
a new semester for me...
a new challenge for me...
2 subjects for this sem...maths and psychology...
what the theory subjects...damn bored !
but i have to love it ... T.T mom ! help me...
i hate math since i studying in primary school...
because of the teacher ! don't know how to teach...make me mad of it...so i hate it...
is the teacher affect me...! yup ! is the math teacher ! and the secondary school teacher...
what the _ _ _ _ ! really make me mad of it again and make me hate him ...! ( add math teacher - lignum? ET?) haiz.... but i will try my best to score it .... XD

Well... till now i don't know whether i want to resit the marketing subject or not...because i took a poor result... is just confusing me now... anything just by a finger's breadth...another problem is i don't know whether i can handle it or not..? if i resit, i need to put alot of effort on it...and have to study again all the chapter... so that i can score it ...! but how about the other two subject...? i can't leave it too... have to put more and more effort on it too... come on!! i don't know i take the result and what should i say..? lucky or unlucky..? hmmm... anyway... all is just a pass...have to look forward too... !! right ? guys...

So, monday ..! the first class for me... have to meet each others again... well... i need to wear nicely and make over... hehe ! the first day...can't so slipshod... give others a good image ... and fresh look...well...but i become fat already ! shuuuuttt !

Whatever ... everything go lucky... i wish...
god bless me ...~
good night ~
sweet dream ~

Add-on :
*i looked at the outside of the window just now...clouds turn red at midnight ,and silence everywhere... just some insects making noise... hmmm...happy 4 friends back... a whole house will be very noisy back... haha !! _____peaceful : chirrupy house ...

*Chin Yew's result will be announced tomorrow... so what can i say is "good luck and glad "...

Hotel Be Hostel : Kiss The Rain

came back to kampar already...
cleaned the house too...
well... the house is "hotel be hostel"...
last time i just moved to the house...well...is really like a hotel...all is new...clean...and fresh...
after 2 semester , the house really like a messy hostel... there is become more and more things we have...
well....after cleaning the house...sue and me planing to go out to take our dinner...but raining ...
so we decided to cook at home...
after that, we start to do our own things...

Raining just now...
i unfortunately kiss the rain...
IM GRIPPE now ~ ( sue too...lolxxx)
terrible ~ hope will recover tomorrow...
suffering ~~~

Freak Moody

Busy a whole day.... finally settled everything...
but what is the fucking hell..?!
im moody today...
and scold by mom this evening...just because of the CD copy...
Shuuttt !!
and im rushing time and go to burn the FUCKING CD to her...
because i have to fetch my brother go to tuition on time...is just left half an hour for me to find Pc shop to burn the STUPID cd... fuck !! and my brother scold by mom also...he just angry at there... and everything i need to settle...if not, my mom will nagging and nagging...
Shuuuutt !!!
fine...done it ! and fast speed to go back home and take my dinner + bath...
next, fetch my mom go to her program...(actually im gulp back my dinner and bath like a cow)
next... go to friends house and hang out together...
chit-chat till 12.30am... back home... and preparing the things to going back to kampar...
and till now....

sorry....moody a whole day....because too busy for me suddenly...
i think is my personality or attitude... whatever ! just sleep early ....
good night.....bye..~
good luck ...!

Get Ready ~

Morning ...!
woke up just now ...by answering my dad call...
later...i got so many things to do and settle...
i need to fetch my brother from school...
have to go to bank to pay my next semester fees...
and then go to another bank to apply a new account...
next go to renew my IC card...
then need to buy "my food for war"...
at night , wanna fetch my brother go to tuition...
and fetch my mom go to her program...
Busy a whole day...

Get Ready To Complete The Mission ...~~~

bye~

Nice Supper

Well...nothing to do today...

as a disable person...

until at night...

fetch my brother go to library

and went to the little girl house...

she took something for me...

hehe~~ is "guai ning gou"...

(i'm Guai Ning Gou...hihi) stupid dialog~~~ @.@

she gave me a cup...a big cup...hehe~thx her...muackzz

After i fetch my brother back from library ...we went to seven-eleven bought something...

and drive the car and "lepak" here and there...

...... till im hungry......

then we decided to buy burger ...

we arrived to there and saw many people waiting for ...

(many people still waiting...)

the burger stall i want to introduce to my hometown friends...

Is "Burger FC"...infront the Bank Islam... business at night...

a burger stall .... selling very palatable burger and cheap...

i bought a special burger and RM2.80 only...

but i have to wait around half an hour ...

because many people go and buy...althought it is raining...

well...is ok... deserve to wait it...because i love it...and Delicious!

(i'm ready to eat ~~~hehe..!)

Fucked up !

Speechless..

My result like shit..

Omfg..!

Fucked up result..

Fucked up feeling..

No idea ...

No pensee..

Feverous sick

Well... my dream come true...

i told my brother ,"i hope i can sick someday, so that i can slim down..."

now...really come true...! XoX

yesterday night...high fever ...my head feels so pain and faint...my hand and feet feel so cold...

so, go to clinic and visit the doctor again...

this morning, high fever ! i can feel that my eyes can burn something...my head and boil eggs...

really uncomfortable...and damn irascible...

i slept a whole day today...shit...~~~

today a little cute girl came and visited me...thanks her...accompany me a whole evening...hehe...so happy...^.^

well....end of the every sem break sure i sick...

last sem is chicken pox...

this sem is high fever...

i don't know next sem break i will have any sick belongs to me...=.=

wait and see ~

* 26th my result may be announce... *

worrying now... hope god really make my dream come true...

* let me pass 2.0 ... god bless me ... i love you ... *

Driver on the Seat " Money for nothing

Since came back to home, i become a driver everyday...
i mean my brother's driver~
fetch him go here and there...damn tired...and HOT ! but fun...
hmmm...be a driver...i think is quite fun...
sit in the car and driving...
control the speed and speeding on the road...
cool !~~~
I'm a speed merchant...am i guys..?
i like speeding on the road + some hitz songs...
wow ! love it....love that feeling...
The feeling on the seat with fast speed...
really exciting and feel nice...
overall, speed merchant so cool...!
but, SAFETY is important ~
NO Safety NO Life

******************************************
i need to save money start from now ...
and worry of the finance problem...
it affect so many business circle recently...
so save money to save yourself...for future usage...
money for nothing...health for everything...
so live with unsufferable... live with enjoyable...
Good luck to all ~ god blessing...
Got to go out now ~~~ hehe...
Tosai , im coming ~

Romeo Said.

"i know im not that good enough for you ..

im not that chariness...

im not that handsome...

im not that cute...

im not that rich...

im not that high education...

im not that thoughtfull...

im not that good in everything for you...

i cant make you proud...

i cant make you smile...

im sorry i cant beside you when you sad...

im sorry i make you dissappointed on me ...

im sorry for everything...

This tractate is for someone special & im so love with...

I hope my little one can beside me always...

and take care of you forever...

~~~Luv you & miss you ~~~",

Romeo said.

X more Solarize

Solarize~

so shine ~ shining ~ shining ~

lolxxx...

Rich family , rich as a jew?

So what ? ~ Different class ...

nothing to compare with ~

nothing can compare so~

They got their class struggle...

We got our stage harmony...

Right ?...

I love appreciate ~

I love humble ~

I love experience ~

I love friendly ~

I love my style ~

I love freedom ~

X more Comparing .

X more Show-Off .

I love everything of mine...

~~~~~~~~~~ Night ~~~~~~~~~

miss you ...

sweet dream ...

Happy Belated Birthday To Kaigor .

Happy belated Birthday To Kaigor Chen Jun…

So sorry I din post birthday wish to my kaigor …

Happy Belated Birthday to Kaigor …

Happy birthday to you althought I cant celebrate with you …and no present for you...
Just hope you had a Wonderful birthday with your friends and brothers…
I hope you can continue your study as well and…happy always …^^
im always your didi ...

Ok? Hear me? Haha…

Anyway ! Happy Belated Birthday to you…!

|| L-O-V-E S-T-O-R-Y ||

Well, exam is over finally…
I will have short term break to relax…
But I feel that something bad is coming soon…
My result? Don’t know… maybe…

I watched a movie yesterday…

A love story, a lovely couple on the scene…
The love story is so touching…
The Story starting from two years ago…
The story is described about the leading character-Romeo and his beloved-Juliet…
They fall in with each other in a messy class…
They become a nice classmate and then best friends slowly…
They treat each other so nice and friendly…
But, how know…Romeo fall in love with Juliet smoothly…
Juliet doesn’t know Romeo loves her…but by the way, Juliet loves him too…
Both of them don’t know the other side fall in love with each other…

One day, Romeo admitted that he loves Juliet…but he not get ready to date with her…
Juliet felt so hurt and disappointed …
So, they become friends again…

One year later, Juliet asked him again… he gave the same answer to her…and told her that he got the new girlfriend…But actually not… He bluffed her because he thinks that he doesn’t want Juliet wasting her time and her young on him… he feels that love is complicated and annoying…
Juliet felt very upset about Romeo’s answer… Romeo in her heart slowly disappears… Juliet’s heart feels bleeding and tears… the same time, Romeo felt apologize to her …and what he did…
They are studying in the same school but not the same class. So luckily, they stay at the same place…they can meet with each other every time as well…Romeo always steal a glance about Juliet’s life style… He always cares about Juliet’s life silently…

One year later, Romeo invited Juliet go to a trip... and she says:”yes!” …
After the trip, Romeo meets Juliet again… and he want to date with her…
Romeo says something that makes Juliet dropping tears…
Juliet be in storm and hugging Romeo …
Just because Romeo says: “I LOVE YOU, Juliet.”…

The end of the story is they love each other very much…and they can celebrate valentine day with each other every year… not lonely and single…

X more single for them…

Brave to say love, brave to love…

Happy Vanlentine Day To All Of You !

N But E

4 am now ...

How is my feeling ?

N But E ... (Nervous But Exciting)

everything will go smoothly i wish ...

Today, i finished the Sociology paper ...

so luckily i know how to do ... ( Dunno whether is right or wrong)

Because all i wrote is rubbish and repeat and repeat the point ...(actually is the same point)

but i hope i can pass it...Besides this subject, i hope i can pass all the subjects too ...

and My CGPA must pass ! ... if not, i need to repeat the sem ...

I DON WANT !

Utar ... is an uni that easy to in AND easy to kick ...

I hope im not the one who is so "lucky".

GOD ! You Love Me ? If you love me , then bless me ...help me to pass this sem ...

I Love You So Much ! God ...( belief in God - a point of the sociology sub )

X.X

Tuesday, Marketing !

Wow ! Amazing ... really amazing ...

BECAUSE GOT ALOT OF THINGS TO STUDY !

aikzzz ... Bless me , everyone !

No more .

- No more Management Sub -
- No more Reinforcement -
- No more P,O,L,C -
- No more Stress -
- No more Strategy Planning -
- No more Expectancy Theory -
- No more Successful Control -
- No more stereotype -
- No more Management Functions -

- No more The Bull Shit Exam Paper -
- No more The Stupid Function -

- But ,
- IM LOSE ! -
- Game Over -

MY DEADLINE

Final Exam ...
means that is my deadline !
my deadline again...
SHIT !
Need to STUDYING , STUDYING and STUDYING !
Revision Revision Revision Revision Revision ! ! !
I hate the feeling ...
STRESS !
zzzzzzzzzzzzZZ ...
Midnight Owl again !
Pimples Everywhere on my face ... OMG !
I gonna be CRAZY ... !!

Gotta to study now ...

- FACE THE BOOKS , READ THE NOTES , DO ALL THOSE ! -
(But i gonna be a ghost ! ) XoX

END UP WITH A MESSAGE

Just now ...

i saw a message from someone i really appreciate ..

i keep it for long long ago ...

is it the message to end up our friendship...?

I dun understand ...

But i realize something ...

is THE END of our Best friendship ...

Once i see the message ... eyes will be red , tears will drop ...

Im angry ... because i cant force you to forgive me ...

Im disappointed ... because i can see the distance of us ...

Im sad ... because i lost the friendship ...

SAME AS HUMAN BUT WE ARE DIFFERENT.

WE ARE HUMAN
SAME AS HUMAN
BUT WE ARE DIFFERENT
BACKGROUND DIFFERENT
CULTURE DIFFERENT
THINKING DIFFERENT
STANDARD DIFFERENT
STYLE DIFFERENT
SPENDING DIFFERENT
LANGUAGE DIFFERENT
AMBITION DIFFERENT
WHAT THE SAME AND DIFFERENT
YOU CAN GET WHAT YOU WANT FORWARDLY
BUT I CANT GET WHAT I WANT EASILY
THIS IS WHAT THE DIFFERENT
THIS IS A DIFFERENCES ABOUT YOU AND I .

HOT DAY & HOT NIGHT

This few days... i didn't update my blog ...

Because im so busy to prepare for cny ...

Once i came back to hometown ... my homework is waiting for me ...

aikss ... so i need to do what every year i have done ...

i need to decorate the house ... need to prepare some biscuit and sweet for guests ...

Besides that , i become a driver in this year ...

i need to fetch my brother & sisters going in and out ... damn hot !

i dunno why i feel so hot this few days ... !

even the house air-con has on ... i also feel damn damn hot ...!!Pls raining ...

today i need to iron my new clothes for cny ... hehe !!

i cant waiting for cny coming ... so that i can wear all new clothes and go out ... keke !

BUT ~ pls ! the weather DON so hot ... is too hot for a candle man ...

Candle man cant alive anymore ... He will melt soon ...help ~~~! help ~~~!

He is praying for raining ... He loves raining ! ^^

CNY Im waiting for you ...

- HOT DAY & HOT NIGHT -

Wish you all have a wonderful chinese new year ..!

+ HAPPY CHINESE 牛 YEAR +

&

` Happy Birthday To CK ! `(The pic will upload as soon as possible ...)

Happy Always ...

Thats all & Good night !

Happy Belated Birthday , KK !

Sorry ...kk...
Sorry for i cant attend to your birthday celebration that day ...
Im apologize for that ... because i went to kl ... "doing something important to me !"
=.=
Present ?
I din buy for you yet ... i cant search for something nice for you ...because no time for me ... very haste for me ...
Hope that you can allow for my circumstances ...
Sorry again ...
I hope that you had a nice birthday celebration with them without me ...
^^

Happy Belated Birthday To Kok Keat - Froggie ...

one's day always !!

-I-L-O-V-E-T-O-S-T-U-D-Y-

Damn Shit ...

No mood to do my revision ...

Everyone starting now ...

But how about me ?

Still stand aside ...

Haiz ......

Of course i stand aloof from them ...

Not yet to start at all ...

Jumbled books and jumbly mood ...

Need to clean up and keep one's mind on study ...

I hope i can do it ...

><

Love books, Love study ...

-I-L-O-V-E-T-O-S-T-U-D-Y-I-L-O-V-E-T-O-S-T-U-D-Y-I-L-O-V-E-T-O-S-T-U-D-Y-I-L-O-V-E-T-O-S-T-U-D-Y-I-L-O-V-E-T-O-S-T-U-D-Y-

Morning , everyone !

Well ... i skip class today ...

Because the all classes are useless for exam ...

Wake up then freshen up ...

After that , wash my clothes ....

Damn tired !

After fnished that , i start to blogging ...

till now ...... hehe ...

And i will start to do revision later ....

I need to find out my senior''s past year exam paper and do ...

Do my revision later ...!

Time to be a good boy ...

- Haha -

An Ordinary Day

Today , a nice day ...

Nice mood for study ...

Today i can wake up early morning ...

MIRACLE !

Today went to school and many many students in school NOW !

Jan intake ( foundation and degree student ) and degree students ( second semester and third
semester ) ...

Cafeteria has crowded many students ....OMG !

No place for me ...T.T and hot ...

Today, got a competition for mass comm in school ...

TA 10 got the champion of the press conference ...

I dunno Why TA 19 din get ... because i think TA 19 have done well in this competition ...

aikzz...Kelvin , don give up ... next sem can do better in other subject ...!

After that , i went to pasar malam with Chung( my crazy roomate)...

I settle my dinner with a curry chicken rice and a pack of saimailou ais ...

All add up just RM 4.60 only ...

At night , i had gambling with Sue and Chung for a while...

Because we are damn bored tonight ... ( we had a benign gambling )

Then ... ,

i continue to chit-chat with my friends ... ^^ till now ...

I got to sleep soon ...

Good night , everyone !

Sweet dream i wish ...*****

Tomorow will be a better day ...

- ^ ^ -

Simply taking the photo ... =.=

He ~

Lolxxx...

He ?

Yes ! He is my netfriend...

His nickname is - Warrior ...

......=.=......

i also dunno why he wanna to call this name ?

He ~~~ hmmm ... 90's boy...

Pic ? He is shy to give ...

Playing basketball ... playing piano ( admire ) ... and ......

Ohya !! He is single now ...

Who are interested, can contact me ... can introduce for them ...

haha... kidding ...warrior ...

He is a nice guy of course ... he hate drinking beer and smoking !!

He always say NO to all this such things ...haha...

Overall, he is a tall ( taller than me ) , and good guy ...

^^ ...

( check it out , warrior ! )

this all what i can copy ...=.=

Nightmare ~

What happened to me ?

I had nightmare every night recently ...

It makes me sleep disorder ...

I cant sleep well ... and the nightmare is related with people around me ...

It is terrible and horrible ... all scene are bad for me ...

I really thought im watching movie in nightmare ...

Thats is terrible if it continued happen to me ...

I gonna be CRAZY !!

ARHHHH !!!

I don want let it be serious !

I want sleep well ...

I need sweet dream ...

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hot Night !

A damn hell-fired hot tonight ...
I cant sleep even i naked ...
I don't know what is happening ...
like hell on earth ...
Chung , i think you are not sick ... maybe im the sick one ...
I cant sleep now ... almost 5am already ...
OMFG !
come on ~, tomorow i got many class start on 8am till 5.30pm ...
i sure will sleep in the class ... T.T
if i sleep now ... of course i cant wake up on 7.am !
Shit ... ! my face got many pimples already ...
I cant keep my face in perfect mode till cny ...
somemore 2 weeks ... cny is coming ... !
I need my face be better !!
Sleep early and drink more water ~~
Haiz ... i think that is impossible to sleep early ...
=.= ......

What I Need ?!

What i need ?!

I really need a car ... !

Is very unconvenient if no car for me ...

Add on the stupid fucking bus driver always not on time ...

Make me fed up to take bus to go to school ...

If i have a car ... i can scheduled for my time ...

No need to accommodate myself to the bus schedule ...

And i no need to beg others to fetch me go to school ...

i hate the feeling ... Need to see others phiz ...

When i have a car ?

I cant endure this anymore !

Dad , i really need a car ! pls ~~~ Give me a car as soon as possible ... ! im begging ... T.T

(God bless me ~~~ )

I have to do revision now ... Is time to be a hard-working guy ...

Rain belt . rain day .

Lazybones Thinking ~

Haha...

Sunday ...

What i did ?

Of course need to relax for a moment ...

Hmmm ...

Sometimes ...

I feel that ...

LAZY IS X LAZY...

LAZY = RELAX ...

Lazy is let everyone take a rest ... to take a breath ...

Do you think so ?

Even so busy...

Rest for a while ... Take a breath ... Continue to busy ...

is a nice break ...^^

hmmm ...

Lazy is Relax ... is my theory ... my idea ...

Im always take myself in relax mode ...

so that my life will not so irksome and bored ...

Life is X a Job ...

Relax and Waiting for next mission ...

(i hope my uncle can be alright and recovery swiftly ... )

~ Good Night ~

Latest Diary ...

Thats Me ...
The latest photo ...

2009 / 01 /09 ...

Always the same ...

Cant lose anymore !!

I cant lose anymore !!

I really cant lose anymore !!

Everyone here must think that why im so stupid ...

Why i want to compare with others ...

i got a friend asked me. Why don give yourself set a target ? why must compare with others ?

There is no WHY and there is no answer...

maybe im think that compare with others as my target ...

To win over ... is just my target ...

My friend said me i had change alot now ...

Said that im an emotional guy now and different with last time ...

Am i changed ? lolxxx...is just me ...

Im think that everyone not so deep-felt to know who i am ...

Even though my friends , family or anyone who know me ...

What im try to say that is i know who am i ... and i know what im doing now ...

My friends trying to describe me sometimes ... they are not so clearly about me ...

And im so difficult to discribe with them ... sometimes i cant use any words to describe ...

I don't understand how to describe ... But im clearly know who i am ...

I lose many thing since i was young ...

I hate the feeling ...

I really hate the feeling ...

even my confidence i also to lose out ...

And now i be more cowardice ...

Thats all for tonight ...

~Good Night ~

the end of the movie of 2008 ; 2009 new episode is coming..

A new episode of my life movie is coming...
my new life in 2009 !! The Title is "Change My Life , Change My Luck "
haha....the title is quite stupid ..i think...
anyway , is a theme for me , myself...

2008 was ending ... What i have done is 2008 ?
eat , sleep , play , and somemore..? Ohhya ! shopping...
studying...i don't think i did it well...so, im so sorry to my dad and mom...sorry for them...
2008 ....i had many many and many unhappy matter....what can i say that is unhappy 60% and happy 40% in a whole year of 2008....
2008 the old episode ... will be keep in my memory... 2009 a new film of my life in 2009...
everyone also is a director of own movie....have own style, own movie....
everyone also has character in every movie...

life such as a movie...movie is act out from our life...

anyway, 2009 do my best and keep on going my target...
come on ! i can do it....a..s...w..e...l..l...~~~

just now kaigor argue with me..
both of us like small kids...haha
always like that...
wish he work hard in his working and be manager someday...^^

and

wish my all friends will be happy and all da best for them !!!^^

dunno what i want to write d....overall..., ALL DA BEST FOR EVERYONE I KNOW !! ^^
GAMBATEH !!

What you said and im NOT !

What you said...

but im not....

hate others say me like that...

what the fuck you say and call and im not...

im disagree what you said...

i feel i become more rude and dull recently...

what you said and shut up...

don say any words that im mad ...

keep your mouth shut and don fucking the hell words infront of me...

im so endure as well now....

don make me hit you...

im not too fine with it...

you better know the next step you need to do!!

GOD bless you...~

A different study lifestyle and christmas eve T.T

i had a horrible and terrible tired week...
a totally diffirent lifestyle ...
every day need to presentation with formal ...
OMFG ! my formal shirt not enough for it...i need to buy formal shirt and my formal pants for future use...
i had my presentation last wednesday and i had a praise from lecturer ...im so happy...because this is the first time praise by lecturer in my individual section presentation...^^
this week..i had writing for mass comm presentation also..."press conferences" ...i had put alot of effort on it...and i didn't sleep just because of it...i prepared all the tools and decoration things...
is damn tired for me....shit...!! and i went to presentation without a full rehearsal and one source makes me stress is i have to get ready with the question from media group in press conferences... im worry they will play a trick on my group...but finally they asked the question is simple for me....~.~ and in the same time i had a good comment from lecturer...^^ Thanks God~~

After that, i went back and sleep a whole night....then celebrated wei chung's birthday with him... and then, i went to 21st drinking with my friends...we discuss about ghost...is quite scary and fright...we drink and chit-chat until 3am and i was badly drunk and overnight in my friend's house...really shit..!

and the next day ( yesterday) i woke up on 8.30am then went back to my house and continue to sleep...is damn blur that time....and then i went to school on 11.3am but the class is ended on 12pm...i just went there and take an attendance...=.=

after that, i have to start rushing my web pages deisgn assignment...is quite challenging for grace khoo and me...i have to edit images up to 30 images for her in one night...but i havent finish yet now...continue tomorow...because i have no mood to edit images...im doing the assignment until now and no christmas countdown for me....everyone went to celebrate and somebody having a trip to genting or singapore... left me alone in a room and rushing for assignment...! FUCK ! and Bull Shit ! what the hell christmas eve i had !? And tomorow need to continue my assignment...! Friday morning i have to go back earlier and i need a meet with my sister ... don't know how she looks like and what the souvenir she bought for me from Bali and Sarawak...i think is useless for me as well...

Yesterday is Wei Chung's Birthday !! i wish he had a wonderful birthday and merry christmas !

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL !!!!!

Good Night and Have a nice dream ~~~

Emo

i feel that im emotional recently...
my friends telling jokes or laughing...
but i still have a smile...or just give a response...
i don't know what the hell is happened about me...
im rushing my assignment recently....
have some conflict with my classmate...
is suppose coorperate well....but the result is different...
i don't like the feeling with conflict...and lying people...
but i cant control the matter...but it is over...
well...im not trust to anyone in my class now..
just can believe myself....wanna be bad or good guy in class..?
just checking their action and planning the next step what should i do...

very emo and emo recently....
Don't like to talk, don't like to laugh...
juat like a dark cloud around me....
help me..~~~~

My 18th Birthday !!

my 18th birthday...
a birthday without family..
a birthday with many friends and family wishing...
thanks to them...
thanks to:Dad, Celine(eldest sister), Shirley(elder sister), Derren(younger brother), Z, Sue, Ck, Kk, Sengle, Agatha, Weichung, Yaya, Huingoh, Cj Kaigor, Jeff, TB5 Gangs-( Bro.Jinyuan, Bobo, Carmen, Elaine, Carmen, Yangting, Cheehong, Chooipeng, Xiaopei, Grace, Hongyun, Junjun, Pooiyeng, Shyn ) Miss Kavitha(my lecturer), Benson, Ganss, Jingel kaimui, Joseph, Kelvin, Kiajin, Poicia, Ritchic, Shunjing, Suwen, Wenglee, Wenxian, Yongheng, Jowy, Jacelyn, Jessica, warrior, Andrew, Swing, Xiaobudian, Desiree, Kinjun, Kei Mikeleong, ziyin, 俊杰, Michelle, Maliqha, 丰仔 and many more...thanks you all..!!Sorry for those i forget to mention...tell me..!!but you cant angry me..!hihi...^^

13-12-2008 night
Sue wanted giving surprise for me...hihi...i know some about her planing ..so i think what will be going on...anyway, thanks her...and my cool friends from hometown...ck, kk and sengle...they came to kampar and celebrated with me...happy...and they bought a cake and t-shirt + beach pants for me...thanks alot..!! i like it...while there was 12am sharp...my phone was busy...and i was busy to reply message and msn....be a busy man that time....after they back, sue n i went to 21st bistro drinking some...
sue said im drunk that time...she said im emotional..haha...really..? don't know...after that,we went to westlake and waiting for meteor rain..but i think is rumours..because there is nothing..=.=

14-12-2008
my birthday...first of all, i slept till 9am..then wakeup online...! there is nothing to do ...and boring... thanks to my kaigor,eventhought he is moody recently but he still called and wishing me twice...thank you..!!
after that, sue n i planned wanna go out ...but there is raining suddenly...shit..!! then the planning
canceled. After that, we cooked something to eat..hmm...the third time i have a big cook in kampar...of course the all food is nice..hoho..!!then at night, my TB5 gangs and i had a gathering in 21st too... we eat and drink..i had two cakes by them..thanks alot...and....this time i drink alot...feels abit faint and simply say nothing...all my friends keep laughing at me...=.= after that, we had a big group snapshot ...! And then, we wanna go to sing K ..but it is closed...so canceled....then we went to restaurant for supper...finally i feel better more after taking supper...haha..my friends worried about me that time...lolxx...so shame..around 2.30am...i went back to home normally and my friends expectation is fail..hihi...because they expected i will drunk when back home....finally nope..!hihi...
overall, my birthday is just like that....
a birthday with friends...
i will post the photo soon,sorry....because im so busy for last week and this next week....have to rush my assignment and presentation....

2 more days to go...

a birthday without family...
this is my first time will experince it soon ...
since i was a baby till now...i had 3 or 4 times birthday party only ( if i not mistaken )
my family culture which is they are not so concern about bierthday and all this thing...
my parents will bring me go to take a dinner and buying a cake celebrate with me this few years... i had my family celebrate my birthday with me every year...
2 more days to go...is my 18 years old birthday...it will makes me exciting and waiting for that day coming normally....but i din feel any exciting and happy now...
don ask me why..? i also don't know...
maybe there is many and many assignment are waiting for me...i don't have time to think and to feel it is coming...
and final is around the corner ... come on! allen..! you need to study hard start from now..!!
you cant be a loser..!
anywhere..., everything will be change after my 18 years old birthday..!
i got to sleep now...
night everyone...

at last, HAPPY BIRTHDAY to Yew Hooi...my good friend we know each other since we was 13 years old...
i wish that he has a wonderful birthday at hometown...althought i cant celebrate with him now...apologize for that...
~Friendship Forever~

- My 18 years old birthday...is that going to celebrate with my family? But i wish... -

MADLY FUCK NIGHT

I REALLY HATE OTHERS MISUNDERSTANDING ME !
I HATE THEY THOUGHT I'M LAZY AND I DON'T WANT TO GO FOR DISCUSSION !
AND I DON'T KNOW ACTUALLY WHAT IS GOING ON ! I DON'T KNOW THEY GOT DISCUSSION TONIGHT !
AND ONE OF MY GROUP MEMBER SAID THAT SHE GOT INFORMED ME !
WELL ! BUT I DIN HEAR ANYTHING ABOUT THE DISCUSSION AND I DON'T KNOW AT ALL !
I REALLY HATE THE FEELING ABOUT OTHERS FAIL TO UNDERSTAND CORRECTLY ABOUT ME AND ABOUT THE PROBLEM !
SERIOUSLY I REALLY CANT TO ENDURE ABOUT THAT ! EVEN THOUGHT HOW TOLERANCE I HAVE !
I JUST CAN SAY THAT THIS IS NOT MY FALSE !
I DON'T KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT THE DISCUSSION !
WHAT THE F NIGHT I HAVE NOW !OMFG !

F.F.F.F.F.F.F.F.F.F.F.F.F.F.F.F.F.F.F.F.F.F.F.F.F.F.F.F.F.F.
U.U.U.U.U.U.U.U.U.U.U.U.U.U.U.U.U.U.U.U.U.U.U.U.U.U.U.U
C.C.C.C.C.C.C.C.C.C.C.C.C.C.C.C.C.C.C.C.C.C.C.C.C.C.C.C.C.C.
K.K.K.K.K.K.K.K.K.K.K.K.K.K.K.K.K.K.K.K.K.K.K.K.K.K.K.K.K.K
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- FOREVER FRIENDS -

- Forever friends -

I believe I can love
You give me your loving care
I believe in what we are
I don’t know where I would be
Without you staying with me
Sometimes, I’m lost in misery
You will take me all the way, I’m not afraid
Oh, you and me, hand in hand
To everywhere amazing
Be my friend, oh friend
We are forever friends
Oh baby, you give me all the love I need
You are the only one

I believe I can love
You give me your loving care
I believe in what we are
You will take me all the way, as day by day
Oh, you and me, hand in hand
To everywhere amazing
Be my friend, oh friend
We are forever friends
Oh baby, you give me all the love I need
You are the only one
You will take me all the way, as day by day
Oh, you and me, hand in hand
To everywhere amazing
Be my friend, oh friend
We are forever friends
Oh baby, you give me all the love I need
You are the only one

-By artist : 冯曦妤

I love this song very much...
The lyric is truly and deeply represent what i feel & what i want to say...
it represent what i think and what YOU and ME to be...
-FOREVER FRIENDS-

WHAT IS WEB PAGE DESIGN ?!

Today , Web Page Design....
well...., before that i think that web page design is a subject that i can handle very well in this sem...because i like to design...i like the feel when design something...
BUT....today i had a web page design test....it test all is theory and the syntax...
Oh My God...!! it almost make me die in exam...!!
while doing this the test...i really become more and more angry...because all this such things is useless for web page design...!
Hello..!! web page design is using our creative not only the theory...! Theory is just a thing that is dead and it really just a dead thing...! why we want to study the dead things ?! really make me feel mad about this...!
it make me become more and more to mad of it and i don like it anymore...!!sienzz...
creative to design a web page is called web page design...
how about if memories the theory of web page design? what is it? should it call web page design or web page study....?! hmmm....think about it....
overall for today web page design...is die..!!
I'M DEAD..! and im waiting for the punishment for it...."x"

关于她

她, 是我的好朋友.
她, 是我的知己.
她, 是我的姐姐.
她, 是我的老师.

四年前,她把我当成她的好朋友...
从那天起, 我们的故事就开始了...
这一段友谊的故事, 一段开心的剧情...,一段难忘的友情...
她教会我很多东西...
无论什么事情,她都会帮我...鼓励我...安慰我...真的谢谢她...!
她无时无刻都是我的听从...愿意听我诉苦...
她无时无刻都鼓励我...
她教会我什么是珍惜...
而我在她身上学会了坚强...

她每天早上的习惯就是喝一罐橙汁,才上学...
她每天都很认真的做完每件事...
她是一个很坚强的小女孩...
她的坚强比谁还来得强....
佩服...!

我曾因为她而流泪...因为我知道我不能失去这位朋友...
自从我们大家联络回对方...泪才慢慢的消失...
我和她的感情,友谊感觉还是像四年来的感觉一样...一直到现在都没变...
她呢?是不是一样?

她, 一位开朗,坚强的小女孩.....
就是 她...
江幸芮.

Lazy Monday

Today feel sleepy and nothing to do...
no mood to study , no mood to play...
somemore NO mood to disucss assignment...
assignment is around me now..!!OMG...
there are many and many assignment is wating for me...
somemore got mid-term exam...SHIT !!
is impossible to play and relax...
but lazy lazy and lazy ...!!
Lazy to write blog , lazy to do revision , lazy to discuss assignment...
i want relax...!!i wanna my holiday..!!
Where is my holiday...??!!

...Today...

Today , raining day...
I just finished my first sub exam...
i don't know why i feel so nervous this time..?
Maybe last sem i got a poor result...
and i promise myself i wont get that result anymore
and...
that was the first time and the last time..
Maybe this is my luck for the exam
but..
i have to try my best....
i hope i can do it so...

I'm very happy that Z is finished his exam too...
i hope that he can get a result that he wants...
+u Z ...you can do it...!
as i said before, we have to put alot of effort on our study...
just because poor of it...

Z is improving his lifestyle...
i know that....you are tough enough...
Gambateh together...!!

And thanks to my kaigor...
today he called me and encourage me...
thanks alot...^^

Today is today ......
Tomorrow will have a nice day...
and continue my journey...
something is waiting for me to find out...

SHOPPING KING & QUEEN ?!

Last Sunday, Sue n me went to shopping..
we went there by bus....BUT before that we need to walk to a bus stop..!
OMG ! we walked to bus stop under the hot sun and we wear so nice(i think so...hahahaha)...
other people maybe will feel weird...(actually is i feel SO WEIRD!)
i really hope that i have a car now ...and i can go anywhere i like...mmmm...(DREAMING)
...so after we reached to bus stop and while waiting for the bus coming...
we went to 7-11 bought a bottle of water...(actually is because 7-11 got air-con)....haha..
So lucky...the bus arrived on time...and we saw our friends at the bus stop...and we went to ipoh together....but different shopping mall...
....we chit chat and listen songs in the bus while on the way to ipoh...
After the bus arrived to bus station...we need to take another bus go to shopping mall...
But...this time...the bus not so good....because no air-con , people smoking( i hate it) , bad smell , and many things i don't like...
huu...!!Finally we arrived to shopping mall...
We spent alot of money for our buddies's present ...
We busy for searching their present and suit them...waaauu!! is a confused mission...
We spend so much of time to buy our things and rest...
most of the time is thinking of my buddies's present....and choose for them...
hmmm....hope that they lwill ike it...if not,.....( they will know...hahaha....)
Besides their present....i only bought two t-shirt for myself...( i have no t-shirt....pity...)
Sue only bought pants, one formal shirt and one t-shirt...
After that....we went to a steamboat restaurant took our lunch.....is nice & cheap..!
And then....we continue searching for their present...
Huuu......Finally we finished our mission...
We went to starbucks buy a drink and going back to bus station by taxi...
about 7pm we reached to bus station and ready to back home....suddenly, someone said there is the last bus to going back to kampar...(AND THE BUS WITHOUT AIR-CON)...
ok ! fine ! i go n asked a driver...(STUPID DRIVER)...the driver said that is the last round going back to kampar...and said don't choose whether got air-con or not!... i really feel weird and feel angry...WHAT IS THE ATTITUDE HE FACES TO ME!!.....really fedup!...and i can see the bus actually is full already...how i going to sit !?!? ( i think he wants me sit on the bus)....WHAT THE FUCK HE SAID and i won't forget about his SHIT face...Finally there is another bus going back to kampar....so sue , me and my friends went back by that bus....but still without air-con also.....haiz....is ok.....fine.... !no choice...
Finally,we went back to home...and MISSION COMPLETED..!
shopping is nice but my wallet is bleeding blood....Overall amount of the money both of us used is around RM500+++....IS Terrible and Horrible....!!!

Goodbye September ; THE END ?

Goodbye...

september is over...november is coming...

everything in september , all happiness ,

all sadness will disappear in my mind...

welcome a new month...build some happiness , continue my running...

But...there is something always in my mind and my heart...

i wont forget your funny stories , your smile and laughing...

we've know each other since we were nine or ten...

we had joy , we had fun...and i miss that all time we had...

is funny...nice...touch...and real...

even thought our relationship unlike before...

but i want you to know that you are my besties forever...

i'll always be there...and waiting for miracle ...i believe it...

goodbye the moment we had....it cant return back...and history will not coming back...

goodbye and let it go...i miss the history we had....

but i hope that our" movie "can continue and will not stop at here...

Is it THE END of the movie?

......

Cloudy Day and Bored

Just now...i went a lecture and a tutorial class...
wooh! Thats so so so boring....is too boring and sleepy for me...
WHY??
Because the lecturer talking something is useless for exam and tell some bored story...
Feel very boring and sleepy for 3 hours just now...
In additon...got something is annoying me...so i cant concentrate just now...
Luckily, i got bring my MP3 .... later wanna go to gym...i worry i fall sleep in gym room...
Yesterday i sleep late...and today need to wake up so early...is tired for me...
somemore raining and cloudy day...wooh! so nice to sleep...

Althought there is a new day....But there still got something annoying me....my mind just like the cloudy day...

Cloudy and Bored

Just now...i went to a lecture class and a tutorial class...
wooh! Thats so so so boring....is too boring and sleepy for me...
WHY??
Because the lecturer talking something is useless for exam and tell some bored story...
Feel very boring and sleepy for 3 hours just now...
In additon...got something is annoying me...so i cant concentrate just now...
Luckily, i got bring my MP3 .... later wanna go to gym...i worry i fall sleep in gym room...
Yesterday i sleep late...and today need to wake up so early...is tired for me...
somemore raining and cloudy day...wooh! so nice to sleep...

Although it is a new day, there still got something annoyed me....my mind are just like the cloudy day...

Hurt With A Lie

Today...my friend was received a call from his sister...
and his sister told him something...and lie him...
This is straightly HURT to my friend and feel speechless after he knew that ALL his sister told him may A LIE..
my friend told me that He hopes the all lie from his sister is fake...
i hope so...because i don't want to see both of their relationship become worst...
My friend scare to ask his sister whether it is true or not...
He worry the answer by his sister....HE FEELS NERVOUS...!
What can he do now? What should he do? How??Why his sister wanna tell him A LIE?
i also don't know how to help him...Im just guessing now...whether my friend's sister got tell him A LIE or not...but i think that his sister is lying my friend... don't know...Whatever i think is useless....
Well...........
Everything can proven by the time ... I'm sure that there is an answer waiting for him...

"CHICKEN POX" GO AWAY !!

CHICKEN POX is visiting me now...!! i dunno what i should say..?!
Last three days...i get sick -HIGH FEVER , FLU , FAINT , and VOMIT..!
They make me so suffer and moody... ! OK! FINE ! i went to see doctor ...
when im back ... i also bring alot of medicine came back ... ! I take so long time to swallow the all medicine because so BIG...!! OMG!
BUT in this two days... , THE HORRIBLE CHICKEN POX IS VISITING ME ! omg !!! MY WHOLE BODY and FACE is CHICKEN POX !!when i go and bath , i touch my body...!!!OH MY GOD !! is terrible..!! When touching my body...i can feel the one pox one pox on my body..!! NOT THE ONE , IS MANY !
I cant believe it ,it can grow on my body as many as horrible ! i still cannot accept my whole FACE and BODY is CHICKEN POX ! now..... my breakfast , lunch , and dinner is FISH only...So, everyday i will thinking some simple and nice idea to cook the fish..haha~~~
haiz...WHEN THE CHICKEN POX WANT TO LEAVE ME ALONE..!?? IM SO SUFFER TO FACE IT !!! GOD BLESS ME ...~~~~HELP ME....!!!pls~~~~

失眠..考试...

今天开始..是我这个sem 的 final exam 了...
我还不想睡...不知是不是因为习惯了...所以习惯了..夜猫子的生活...
4.25早上了...还是不想睡...等下就要考英文了...但还没翻书...
不知怎么办..?!

最近,我发觉我变回以前的夜猫子了....黑眼圈也深了很多...
从早上睡到下午...就是等于晚上才是我的生活...
最近,大家的关系差了好多...不知为什么我觉得大家都是有心事...
最近,我不想见某某人...甚至不想和她联系...
讨厌..!!不想看到她..但,偏偏就是要我看到...
好不想!!

今天...成功与失败在战争着...
如果..成功胜利了...当然的..开心..
如果..失败胜利了...当然的....失望...
每个人都想自己是聪明人...
每个人都想自己是能干的人...
但偏偏就不是你...
不说了...我要去准备了...

祝大家一切顺利...!!^^考试成功...

Four Weeks-Be a Big Boy...

now...6.07am...i don't know why i feel unsleepy now..at the same time...i feel long long time i didn't post my life's diary d...ermm...im fine around this four weeks but exam is coming soon...but i didn't do any revision and not ready yet...i feel nervous...yes..im worry about my exam...but after i feel nervous and scare...i become back a lazy people...i also don't know why...haiz..!my friends always console and encourage me..i realize what they want me to be...and thank for them...but i really can't find out the right study way that suit me...i will finding it out...!!in this four weeks, my life happened many happening...got make me happy...sad...glad...disappointed...angry...cry...and other....but im still can take care of myself...im always telling myself that im strong...be a big boy...won't so easy to fall down...this three sentences round and round , repeat and repeat in my mind...and console myself...heee...
Yesterday , i went to ipoh shopping with sue...early of the trip..i felt happy ,exciting and laugh and laugh with her..no matter my wallet has left RM60...i know that there is not enough for me shopping...after we went back from ipoh...my wallet is empty...is really empty!!...i really feel so shame in front of a girl...and somemore i need to ask her to pay for me first....omg!!i don't like that feeling...i really feel sad and shame of myself...how can a boy be like that...others i don't know..but for me,i can't accept!!this is not a boy should be and this is not a girl should do...and i know that i will return back that i owe...i really uncomfortable to owe someone else's money...today i went to gym ...the first time i went to gym....i saw others dancing at there...they really cool!!im admire them...and by the time..i will also blame myself and my parents...myself-why i don't know any dance or any music knowledge...my parents-why they don't let me learning piano or any instruments...i know after i blame,i will become normal...ermm...other than drawing and singing...what else i can do?...what else so expert..?Nothing...really nothing...drawing-haha...can't fight with other people...im so poor of it!singing-hahaha....many and many people better than me ...and confident than me...i got my ambition ,my inspiration..but i do not have anything...i just can be a big boy...^^haha...later i will going back to hometown...and monday coming back to a boring place...well...luckily my house got online...so that,i can playing my notebook and waching movie...but where is my mickey mp3?my friend make me disappointed and i started do not believe with her d....she told me this week...ok..i wait...but finally...there is nothing on my table, on my hand...but im still waiting...Recently...i feel that a person makes me feel mad with the person self...because the person did something that i really cannot endure.but i hope that the person will know what the person did that is wrong....ok ...i got to sleep now...^^byebye...today will be a nice day...^^

ended at 6:51am..

打败战！！

可怜。。
这三天，我都病了。。
咳。。
我还以为一天后会有好转。。
哪知道。。倒霉。。
前天，我发烧有好转了。。
今天。。又来复发了。。
最可悲的是。。
4种朋友今天一起来看望我。。
“发烧”，“头痛”，“咳嗽”，“伤风”
他们“真好”。。
弄得我没得吃好的。。没得睡甜的。。
我真的打败战了。。！！