My 18th Birthday !!

my 18th birthday...
a birthday without family..
a birthday with many friends and family wishing...
thanks to them...
thanks to:Dad, Celine(eldest sister), Shirley(elder sister), Derren(younger brother), Z, Sue, Ck, Kk, Sengle, Agatha, Weichung, Yaya, Huingoh, Cj Kaigor, Jeff, TB5 Gangs-( Bro.Jinyuan, Bobo, Carmen, Elaine, Carmen, Yangting, Cheehong, Chooipeng, Xiaopei, Grace, Hongyun, Junjun, Pooiyeng, Shyn ) Miss Kavitha(my lecturer), Benson, Ganss, Jingel kaimui, Joseph, Kelvin, Kiajin, Poicia, Ritchic, Shunjing, Suwen, Wenglee, Wenxian, Yongheng, Jowy, Jacelyn, Jessica, warrior, Andrew, Swing, Xiaobudian, Desiree, Kinjun, Kei Mikeleong, ziyin, 俊杰, Michelle, Maliqha, 丰仔 and many more...thanks you all..!!Sorry for those i forget to mention...tell me..!!but you cant angry me..!hihi...^^

13-12-2008 night
Sue wanted giving surprise for me...hihi...i know some about her planing ..so i think what will be going on...anyway, thanks her...and my cool friends from hometown...ck, kk and sengle...they came to kampar and celebrated with me...happy...and they bought a cake and t-shirt + beach pants for me...thanks alot..!! i like it...while there was 12am sharp...my phone was busy...and i was busy to reply message and msn....be a busy man that time....after they back, sue n i went to 21st bistro drinking some...
sue said im drunk that time...she said im emotional..haha...really..? don't know...after that,we went to westlake and waiting for meteor rain..but i think is rumours..because there is nothing..=.=

14-12-2008
my birthday...first of all, i slept till 9am..then wakeup online...! there is nothing to do ...and boring... thanks to my kaigor,eventhought he is moody recently but he still called and wishing me twice...thank you..!!
after that, sue n i planned wanna go out ...but there is raining suddenly...shit..!! then the planning
canceled. After that, we cooked something to eat..hmm...the third time i have a big cook in kampar...of course the all food is nice..hoho..!!then at night, my TB5 gangs and i had a gathering in 21st too... we eat and drink..i had two cakes by them..thanks alot...and....this time i drink alot...feels abit faint and simply say nothing...all my friends keep laughing at me...=.= after that, we had a big group snapshot ...! And then, we wanna go to sing K ..but it is closed...so canceled....then we went to restaurant for supper...finally i feel better more after taking supper...haha..my friends worried about me that time...lolxx...so shame..around 2.30am...i went back to home normally and my friends expectation is fail..hihi...because they expected i will drunk when back home....finally nope..!hihi...
overall, my birthday is just like that....
a birthday with friends...
i will post the photo soon,sorry....because im so busy for last week and this next week....have to rush my assignment and presentation....

2 more days to go...

a birthday without family...
this is my first time will experince it soon ...
since i was a baby till now...i had 3 or 4 times birthday party only ( if i not mistaken )
my family culture which is they are not so concern about bierthday and all this thing...
my parents will bring me go to take a dinner and buying a cake celebrate with me this few years... i had my family celebrate my birthday with me every year...
2 more days to go...is my 18 years old birthday...it will makes me exciting and waiting for that day coming normally....but i din feel any exciting and happy now...
don ask me why..? i also don't know...
maybe there is many and many assignment are waiting for me...i don't have time to think and to feel it is coming...
and final is around the corner ... come on! allen..! you need to study hard start from now..!!
you cant be a loser..!
anywhere..., everything will be change after my 18 years old birthday..!
i got to sleep now...
night everyone...

at last, HAPPY BIRTHDAY to Yew Hooi...my good friend we know each other since we was 13 years old...
i wish that he has a wonderful birthday at hometown...althought i cant celebrate with him now...apologize for that...
~Friendship Forever~

- My 18 years old birthday...is that going to celebrate with my family? But i wish... -

MADLY FUCK NIGHT

I REALLY HATE OTHERS MISUNDERSTANDING ME !
I HATE THEY THOUGHT I'M LAZY AND I DON'T WANT TO GO FOR DISCUSSION !
AND I DON'T KNOW ACTUALLY WHAT IS GOING ON ! I DON'T KNOW THEY GOT DISCUSSION TONIGHT !
AND ONE OF MY GROUP MEMBER SAID THAT SHE GOT INFORMED ME !
WELL ! BUT I DIN HEAR ANYTHING ABOUT THE DISCUSSION AND I DON'T KNOW AT ALL !
I REALLY HATE THE FEELING ABOUT OTHERS FAIL TO UNDERSTAND CORRECTLY ABOUT ME AND ABOUT THE PROBLEM !
SERIOUSLY I REALLY CANT TO ENDURE ABOUT THAT ! EVEN THOUGHT HOW TOLERANCE I HAVE !
I JUST CAN SAY THAT THIS IS NOT MY FALSE !
I DON'T KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT THE DISCUSSION !
WHAT THE F NIGHT I HAVE NOW !OMFG !

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C.C.C.C.C.C.C.C.C.C.C.C.C.C.C.C.C.C.C.C.C.C.C.C.C.C.C.C.C.C.
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- FOREVER FRIENDS -

- Forever friends -

I believe I can love
You give me your loving care
I believe in what we are
I don’t know where I would be
Without you staying with me
Sometimes, I’m lost in misery
You will take me all the way, I’m not afraid
Oh, you and me, hand in hand
To everywhere amazing
Be my friend, oh friend
We are forever friends
Oh baby, you give me all the love I need
You are the only one

I believe I can love
You give me your loving care
I believe in what we are
You will take me all the way, as day by day
Oh, you and me, hand in hand
To everywhere amazing
Be my friend, oh friend
We are forever friends
Oh baby, you give me all the love I need
You are the only one
You will take me all the way, as day by day
Oh, you and me, hand in hand
To everywhere amazing
Be my friend, oh friend
We are forever friends
Oh baby, you give me all the love I need
You are the only one

-By artist : 冯曦妤

I love this song very much...
The lyric is truly and deeply represent what i feel & what i want to say...
it represent what i think and what YOU and ME to be...
-FOREVER FRIENDS-

WHAT IS WEB PAGE DESIGN ?!

Today , Web Page Design....
well...., before that i think that web page design is a subject that i can handle very well in this sem...because i like to design...i like the feel when design something...
BUT....today i had a web page design test....it test all is theory and the syntax...
Oh My God...!! it almost make me die in exam...!!
while doing this the test...i really become more and more angry...because all this such things is useless for web page design...!
Hello..!! web page design is using our creative not only the theory...! Theory is just a thing that is dead and it really just a dead thing...! why we want to study the dead things ?! really make me feel mad about this...!
it make me become more and more to mad of it and i don like it anymore...!!sienzz...
creative to design a web page is called web page design...
how about if memories the theory of web page design? what is it? should it call web page design or web page study....?! hmmm....think about it....
overall for today web page design...is die..!!
I'M DEAD..! and im waiting for the punishment for it...."x"

关于她

她, 是我的好朋友.
她, 是我的知己.
她, 是我的姐姐.
她, 是我的老师.

四年前,她把我当成她的好朋友...
从那天起, 我们的故事就开始了...
这一段友谊的故事, 一段开心的剧情...,一段难忘的友情...
她教会我很多东西...
无论什么事情,她都会帮我...鼓励我...安慰我...真的谢谢她...!
她无时无刻都是我的听从...愿意听我诉苦...
她无时无刻都鼓励我...
她教会我什么是珍惜...
而我在她身上学会了坚强...

她每天早上的习惯就是喝一罐橙汁,才上学...
她每天都很认真的做完每件事...
她是一个很坚强的小女孩...
她的坚强比谁还来得强....
佩服...!

我曾因为她而流泪...因为我知道我不能失去这位朋友...
自从我们大家联络回对方...泪才慢慢的消失...
我和她的感情,友谊感觉还是像四年来的感觉一样...一直到现在都没变...
她呢?是不是一样?

她, 一位开朗,坚强的小女孩.....
就是 她...
江幸芮.

Lazy Monday

Today feel sleepy and nothing to do...
no mood to study , no mood to play...
somemore NO mood to disucss assignment...
assignment is around me now..!!OMG...
there are many and many assignment is wating for me...
somemore got mid-term exam...SHIT !!
is impossible to play and relax...
but lazy lazy and lazy ...!!
Lazy to write blog , lazy to do revision , lazy to discuss assignment...
i want relax...!!i wanna my holiday..!!
Where is my holiday...??!!

...Today...

Today , raining day...
I just finished my first sub exam...
i don't know why i feel so nervous this time..?
Maybe last sem i got a poor result...
and i promise myself i wont get that result anymore
and...
that was the first time and the last time..
Maybe this is my luck for the exam
but..
i have to try my best....
i hope i can do it so...

I'm very happy that Z is finished his exam too...
i hope that he can get a result that he wants...
+u Z ...you can do it...!
as i said before, we have to put alot of effort on our study...
just because poor of it...

Z is improving his lifestyle...
i know that....you are tough enough...
Gambateh together...!!

And thanks to my kaigor...
today he called me and encourage me...
thanks alot...^^

Today is today ......
Tomorrow will have a nice day...
and continue my journey...
something is waiting for me to find out...

SHOPPING KING & QUEEN ?!

Last Sunday, Sue n me went to shopping..
we went there by bus....BUT before that we need to walk to a bus stop..!
OMG ! we walked to bus stop under the hot sun and we wear so nice(i think so...hahahaha)...
other people maybe will feel weird...(actually is i feel SO WEIRD!)
i really hope that i have a car now ...and i can go anywhere i like...mmmm...(DREAMING)
...so after we reached to bus stop and while waiting for the bus coming...
we went to 7-11 bought a bottle of water...(actually is because 7-11 got air-con)....haha..
So lucky...the bus arrived on time...and we saw our friends at the bus stop...and we went to ipoh together....but different shopping mall...
....we chit chat and listen songs in the bus while on the way to ipoh...
After the bus arrived to bus station...we need to take another bus go to shopping mall...
But...this time...the bus not so good....because no air-con , people smoking( i hate it) , bad smell , and many things i don't like...
huu...!!Finally we arrived to shopping mall...
We spent alot of money for our buddies's present ...
We busy for searching their present and suit them...waaauu!! is a confused mission...
We spend so much of time to buy our things and rest...
most of the time is thinking of my buddies's present....and choose for them...
hmmm....hope that they lwill ike it...if not,.....( they will know...hahaha....)
Besides their present....i only bought two t-shirt for myself...( i have no t-shirt....pity...)
Sue only bought pants, one formal shirt and one t-shirt...
After that....we went to a steamboat restaurant took our lunch.....is nice & cheap..!
And then....we continue searching for their present...
Huuu......Finally we finished our mission...
We went to starbucks buy a drink and going back to bus station by taxi...
about 7pm we reached to bus station and ready to back home....suddenly, someone said there is the last bus to going back to kampar...(AND THE BUS WITHOUT AIR-CON)...
ok ! fine ! i go n asked a driver...(STUPID DRIVER)...the driver said that is the last round going back to kampar...and said don't choose whether got air-con or not!... i really feel weird and feel angry...WHAT IS THE ATTITUDE HE FACES TO ME!!.....really fedup!...and i can see the bus actually is full already...how i going to sit !?!? ( i think he wants me sit on the bus)....WHAT THE FUCK HE SAID and i won't forget about his SHIT face...Finally there is another bus going back to kampar....so sue , me and my friends went back by that bus....but still without air-con also.....haiz....is ok.....fine.... !no choice...
Finally,we went back to home...and MISSION COMPLETED..!
shopping is nice but my wallet is bleeding blood....Overall amount of the money both of us used is around RM500+++....IS Terrible and Horrible....!!!

Goodbye September ; THE END ?

Goodbye...

september is over...november is coming...

everything in september , all happiness ,

all sadness will disappear in my mind...

welcome a new month...build some happiness , continue my running...

But...there is something always in my mind and my heart...

i wont forget your funny stories , your smile and laughing...

we've know each other since we were nine or ten...

we had joy , we had fun...and i miss that all time we had...

is funny...nice...touch...and real...

even thought our relationship unlike before...

but i want you to know that you are my besties forever...

i'll always be there...and waiting for miracle ...i believe it...

goodbye the moment we had....it cant return back...and history will not coming back...

goodbye and let it go...i miss the history we had....

but i hope that our" movie "can continue and will not stop at here...

Is it THE END of the movie?

......

Cloudy Day and Bored

Just now...i went a lecture and a tutorial class...
wooh! Thats so so so boring....is too boring and sleepy for me...
WHY??
Because the lecturer talking something is useless for exam and tell some bored story...
Feel very boring and sleepy for 3 hours just now...
In additon...got something is annoying me...so i cant concentrate just now...
Luckily, i got bring my MP3 .... later wanna go to gym...i worry i fall sleep in gym room...
Yesterday i sleep late...and today need to wake up so early...is tired for me...
somemore raining and cloudy day...wooh! so nice to sleep...

Althought there is a new day....But there still got something annoying me....my mind just like the cloudy day...

Cloudy and Bored

Just now...i went to a lecture class and a tutorial class...
wooh! Thats so so so boring....is too boring and sleepy for me...
WHY??
Because the lecturer talking something is useless for exam and tell some bored story...
Feel very boring and sleepy for 3 hours just now...
In additon...got something is annoying me...so i cant concentrate just now...
Luckily, i got bring my MP3 .... later wanna go to gym...i worry i fall sleep in gym room...
Yesterday i sleep late...and today need to wake up so early...is tired for me...
somemore raining and cloudy day...wooh! so nice to sleep...

Although it is a new day, there still got something annoyed me....my mind are just like the cloudy day...

Hurt With A Lie

Today...my friend was received a call from his sister...
and his sister told him something...and lie him...
This is straightly HURT to my friend and feel speechless after he knew that ALL his sister told him may A LIE..
my friend told me that He hopes the all lie from his sister is fake...
i hope so...because i don't want to see both of their relationship become worst...
My friend scare to ask his sister whether it is true or not...
He worry the answer by his sister....HE FEELS NERVOUS...!
What can he do now? What should he do? How??Why his sister wanna tell him A LIE?
i also don't know how to help him...Im just guessing now...whether my friend's sister got tell him A LIE or not...but i think that his sister is lying my friend... don't know...Whatever i think is useless....
Well...........
Everything can proven by the time ... I'm sure that there is an answer waiting for him...

"CHICKEN POX" GO AWAY !!

CHICKEN POX is visiting me now...!! i dunno what i should say..?!
Last three days...i get sick -HIGH FEVER , FLU , FAINT , and VOMIT..!
They make me so suffer and moody... ! OK! FINE ! i went to see doctor ...
when im back ... i also bring alot of medicine came back ... ! I take so long time to swallow the all medicine because so BIG...!! OMG!
BUT in this two days... , THE HORRIBLE CHICKEN POX IS VISITING ME ! omg !!! MY WHOLE BODY and FACE is CHICKEN POX !!when i go and bath , i touch my body...!!!OH MY GOD !! is terrible..!! When touching my body...i can feel the one pox one pox on my body..!! NOT THE ONE , IS MANY !
I cant believe it ,it can grow on my body as many as horrible ! i still cannot accept my whole FACE and BODY is CHICKEN POX ! now..... my breakfast , lunch , and dinner is FISH only...So, everyday i will thinking some simple and nice idea to cook the fish..haha~~~
haiz...WHEN THE CHICKEN POX WANT TO LEAVE ME ALONE..!?? IM SO SUFFER TO FACE IT !!! GOD BLESS ME ...~~~~HELP ME....!!!pls~~~~

失眠..考试...

今天开始..是我这个sem 的 final exam 了...
我还不想睡...不知是不是因为习惯了...所以习惯了..夜猫子的生活...
4.25早上了...还是不想睡...等下就要考英文了...但还没翻书...
不知怎么办..?!

最近,我发觉我变回以前的夜猫子了....黑眼圈也深了很多...
从早上睡到下午...就是等于晚上才是我的生活...
最近,大家的关系差了好多...不知为什么我觉得大家都是有心事...
最近,我不想见某某人...甚至不想和她联系...
讨厌..!!不想看到她..但,偏偏就是要我看到...
好不想!!

今天...成功与失败在战争着...
如果..成功胜利了...当然的..开心..
如果..失败胜利了...当然的....失望...
每个人都想自己是聪明人...
每个人都想自己是能干的人...
但偏偏就不是你...
不说了...我要去准备了...

祝大家一切顺利...!!^^考试成功...

Four Weeks-Be a Big Boy...

now...6.07am...i don't know why i feel unsleepy now..at the same time...i feel long long time i didn't post my life's diary d...ermm...im fine around this four weeks but exam is coming soon...but i didn't do any revision and not ready yet...i feel nervous...yes..im worry about my exam...but after i feel nervous and scare...i become back a lazy people...i also don't know why...haiz..!my friends always console and encourage me..i realize what they want me to be...and thank for them...but i really can't find out the right study way that suit me...i will finding it out...!!in this four weeks, my life happened many happening...got make me happy...sad...glad...disappointed...angry...cry...and other....but im still can take care of myself...im always telling myself that im strong...be a big boy...won't so easy to fall down...this three sentences round and round , repeat and repeat in my mind...and console myself...heee...
Yesterday , i went to ipoh shopping with sue...early of the trip..i felt happy ,exciting and laugh and laugh with her..no matter my wallet has left RM60...i know that there is not enough for me shopping...after we went back from ipoh...my wallet is empty...is really empty!!...i really feel so shame in front of a girl...and somemore i need to ask her to pay for me first....omg!!i don't like that feeling...i really feel sad and shame of myself...how can a boy be like that...others i don't know..but for me,i can't accept!!this is not a boy should be and this is not a girl should do...and i know that i will return back that i owe...i really uncomfortable to owe someone else's money...today i went to gym ...the first time i went to gym....i saw others dancing at there...they really cool!!im admire them...and by the time..i will also blame myself and my parents...myself-why i don't know any dance or any music knowledge...my parents-why they don't let me learning piano or any instruments...i know after i blame,i will become normal...ermm...other than drawing and singing...what else i can do?...what else so expert..?Nothing...really nothing...drawing-haha...can't fight with other people...im so poor of it!singing-hahaha....many and many people better than me ...and confident than me...i got my ambition ,my inspiration..but i do not have anything...i just can be a big boy...^^haha...later i will going back to hometown...and monday coming back to a boring place...well...luckily my house got online...so that,i can playing my notebook and waching movie...but where is my mickey mp3?my friend make me disappointed and i started do not believe with her d....she told me this week...ok..i wait...but finally...there is nothing on my table, on my hand...but im still waiting...Recently...i feel that a person makes me feel mad with the person self...because the person did something that i really cannot endure.but i hope that the person will know what the person did that is wrong....ok ...i got to sleep now...^^byebye...today will be a nice day...^^

ended at 6:51am..

打败战！！

可怜。。
这三天，我都病了。。
咳。。
我还以为一天后会有好转。。
哪知道。。倒霉。。
前天，我发烧有好转了。。
今天。。又来复发了。。
最可悲的是。。
4种朋友今天一起来看望我。。
“发烧”，“头痛”，“咳嗽”，“伤风”
他们“真好”。。
弄得我没得吃好的。。没得睡甜的。。
我真的打败战了。。！！

Deo Gratias...

昨天。。
真的忙得要命。。
去完成我的升学文件。。
该做的。。都做了。。
该寄的。。都寄了。。
总算是完成我的工作了吧。。

想起昨天。。
真的要谢谢我的好友-chin yew(小贱妖），chooi khuan（君），sue
没有他们的帮忙。。我看东西不会完成得那么顺利。。
谢谢他们。。

从早上8。00am..出发。。
到下午4。00pm..回家。。
哇。。好累哦。。。
一到家。。马上冲凉。。
然后抱着暖枕睡觉。。
到晚上8。00pm ..起床。。吃饭。。
之后。。上网聊天。。看戏。。
哈哈。。直到凌晨5.00am 才入眠。。

+好担心我的升学计划+

" 希望一切顺利 "

人

人。。

总是有高起的时候。。也有低落的时候。。

人的一生就像乐谱里的旋律一样。。

人的一生也像戏剧里的剧情一样。。

高高低低。。。起起跌跌。。



人。。

也是总要学会如何在低落的时候。。过的快乐。。

跌倒了。。虽然很痛。。

但，也是要爬起来。。继续往前走。。

跌倒了。。有了伤口。。

就要及时治疗。。

别等到伤口严重了才治疗。。

那已经太迟了。。

同样的。。

人。。做错了。。

就要及时改正。。

别等到事情严重了才解决。。

已经没得补救了。。



人。。

应该学会如何在开心时。。与他人分享你的喜悦。。

开心时。。会觉得时间过得很快。。

开心后。。应该去珍惜开心的时光。。

把开心留在人的记忆里。。

把开心留在时间的岁月里。。

把开心的一切与他人分享。。

我想。。开心的另一个定义就在这里。。

把开心带给每个人。。把喜悦与他人分享。。

这样人生才过的开心。。圆满。。



人。。

不应该容易放弃。。

忘记以前的失误。。把握现在你拥有的。。

把以前的失误。。当作教训。。

把教训当作未来的警惕。。

人生不至是一段短短的路。。

人生是一段很漫长的人生道路。。

所以，人。。必须开开心心地走完这条漫长的路。。

必须从跌倒后爬起。。再走下去。。

12。3。2008 难忘的一天。。好哥哥的陪伴。。

好久都没有写了。。

今天。。。

是我拿spm成绩的一天。。

我拿了成绩。。

心情一直不好过。。（因为成绩超烂）

哭了一整天。。也睡了一整天。。

家人虽然没有表示什么。。但我知道他们很失望。。

对不起。。

睡了一整天。。去上网聊天。。

哈哈。。好开心。。

最近，我在网上认了一个新哥哥。。（承俊）

他人很好。。有时我觉得他还亲过我家人。。

所以，我天天都找他和我聊聊天。。谈心事。。

他每次都说自己不是个好哥哥。。哈哈。。他好谦虚哦。。

每次又不让我说“谢谢” 和“抱歉”。。

哈哈。。。他真是个好哥哥。。

可以说。。他就是我的亲哥哥。。

虽然，他是住在kuching。。好远。。

但，我不会和他失去联络。。

今天。。我好伤心。。心情低落。。

全靠他。。（承俊哥哥）。。我才没那么伤心。。

心情才好了很多。。

全靠他。。一直安慰我。。

记得昨天。。他陪了我一整夜。。因为我睡不着。。

同样的今晚。。他也是陪了我一整夜。。因为我伤心。。

谢谢你。。哥

今天。。也是我最难忘的一天。。

记得。。拿了成绩。。爸爸打电话给我。。

我不自禁的哭了。。我不敢面对他们。。

过后。。二姐打电话给我。。

我不但没有接。。还关他的来电。。

好没礼貌。。

第三通电话。。我接了。。她听到我哭的声音。。

她也二话不说。。只讲：“我等下再打来。。”

就收线了。。

朋友们。。一直安慰我。。但我还是不能接受事实。。

只好忍到回家。。才大哭一场。。

我好开心。。因为我有一个好哥哥。。

他一直责备自己不好。。帮不上忙。。

我好痛心。。因为家人一直装无所谓的样子。。

他们知道我难过。。所以没有问我成绩。。

我好难过。。因为我唯一一科的希望。。

竟然。。没拿A...好失望。。

现在。。我只希望我能顺利的进form six。。

希望。。上天不要再玩我了。。

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