N But E

4 am now ...

How is my feeling ?

N But E ... (Nervous But Exciting)

everything will go smoothly i wish ...

Today, i finished the Sociology paper ...

so luckily i know how to do ... ( Dunno whether is right or wrong)

Because all i wrote is rubbish and repeat and repeat the point ...(actually is the same point)

but i hope i can pass it...Besides this subject, i hope i can pass all the subjects too ...

and My CGPA must pass ! ... if not, i need to repeat the sem ...

I DON WANT !

Utar ... is an uni that easy to in AND easy to kick ...

I hope im not the one who is so "lucky".

GOD ! You Love Me ? If you love me , then bless me ...help me to pass this sem ...

I Love You So Much ! God ...( belief in God - a point of the sociology sub )

X.X

Tuesday, Marketing !

Wow ! Amazing ... really amazing ...

BECAUSE GOT ALOT OF THINGS TO STUDY !

aikzzz ... Bless me , everyone !

No more .

- No more Management Sub -
- No more Reinforcement -
- No more P,O,L,C -
- No more Stress -
- No more Strategy Planning -
- No more Expectancy Theory -
- No more Successful Control -
- No more stereotype -
- No more Management Functions -

- No more The Bull Shit Exam Paper -
- No more The Stupid Function -

- But ,
- IM LOSE ! -
- Game Over -

MY DEADLINE

Final Exam ...
means that is my deadline !
my deadline again...
SHIT !
Need to STUDYING , STUDYING and STUDYING !
Revision Revision Revision Revision Revision ! ! !
I hate the feeling ...
STRESS !
zzzzzzzzzzzzZZ ...
Midnight Owl again !
Pimples Everywhere on my face ... OMG !
I gonna be CRAZY ... !!

Gotta to study now ...

- FACE THE BOOKS , READ THE NOTES , DO ALL THOSE ! -
(But i gonna be a ghost ! ) XoX

END UP WITH A MESSAGE

Just now ...

i saw a message from someone i really appreciate ..

i keep it for long long ago ...

is it the message to end up our friendship...?

I dun understand ...

But i realize something ...

is THE END of our Best friendship ...

Once i see the message ... eyes will be red , tears will drop ...

Im angry ... because i cant force you to forgive me ...

Im disappointed ... because i can see the distance of us ...

Im sad ... because i lost the friendship ...

SAME AS HUMAN BUT WE ARE DIFFERENT.

WE ARE HUMAN
SAME AS HUMAN
BUT WE ARE DIFFERENT
BACKGROUND DIFFERENT
CULTURE DIFFERENT
THINKING DIFFERENT
STANDARD DIFFERENT
STYLE DIFFERENT
SPENDING DIFFERENT
LANGUAGE DIFFERENT
AMBITION DIFFERENT
WHAT THE SAME AND DIFFERENT
YOU CAN GET WHAT YOU WANT FORWARDLY
BUT I CANT GET WHAT I WANT EASILY
THIS IS WHAT THE DIFFERENT
THIS IS A DIFFERENCES ABOUT YOU AND I .

HOT DAY & HOT NIGHT

This few days... i didn't update my blog ...

Because im so busy to prepare for cny ...

Once i came back to hometown ... my homework is waiting for me ...

aikss ... so i need to do what every year i have done ...

i need to decorate the house ... need to prepare some biscuit and sweet for guests ...

Besides that , i become a driver in this year ...

i need to fetch my brother & sisters going in and out ... damn hot !

i dunno why i feel so hot this few days ... !

even the house air-con has on ... i also feel damn damn hot ...!!Pls raining ...

today i need to iron my new clothes for cny ... hehe !!

i cant waiting for cny coming ... so that i can wear all new clothes and go out ... keke !

BUT ~ pls ! the weather DON so hot ... is too hot for a candle man ...

Candle man cant alive anymore ... He will melt soon ...help ~~~! help ~~~!

He is praying for raining ... He loves raining ! ^^

CNY Im waiting for you ...

- HOT DAY & HOT NIGHT -

Wish you all have a wonderful chinese new year ..!

+ HAPPY CHINESE 牛 YEAR +

&

` Happy Birthday To CK ! `(The pic will upload as soon as possible ...)

Happy Always ...

Thats all & Good night !

Happy Belated Birthday , KK !

Sorry ...kk...
Sorry for i cant attend to your birthday celebration that day ...
Im apologize for that ... because i went to kl ... "doing something important to me !"
=.=
Present ?
I din buy for you yet ... i cant search for something nice for you ...because no time for me ... very haste for me ...
Hope that you can allow for my circumstances ...
Sorry again ...
I hope that you had a nice birthday celebration with them without me ...
^^

Happy Belated Birthday To Kok Keat - Froggie ...

one's day always !!

-I-L-O-V-E-T-O-S-T-U-D-Y-

Damn Shit ...

No mood to do my revision ...

Everyone starting now ...

But how about me ?

Still stand aside ...

Haiz ......

Of course i stand aloof from them ...

Not yet to start at all ...

Jumbled books and jumbly mood ...

Need to clean up and keep one's mind on study ...

I hope i can do it ...

><

Love books, Love study ...

-I-L-O-V-E-T-O-S-T-U-D-Y-I-L-O-V-E-T-O-S-T-U-D-Y-I-L-O-V-E-T-O-S-T-U-D-Y-I-L-O-V-E-T-O-S-T-U-D-Y-I-L-O-V-E-T-O-S-T-U-D-Y-

Morning , everyone !

Well ... i skip class today ...

Because the all classes are useless for exam ...

Wake up then freshen up ...

After that , wash my clothes ....

Damn tired !

After fnished that , i start to blogging ...

till now ...... hehe ...

And i will start to do revision later ....

I need to find out my senior''s past year exam paper and do ...

Do my revision later ...!

Time to be a good boy ...

- Haha -

An Ordinary Day

Today , a nice day ...

Nice mood for study ...

Today i can wake up early morning ...

MIRACLE !

Today went to school and many many students in school NOW !

Jan intake ( foundation and degree student ) and degree students ( second semester and third
semester ) ...

Cafeteria has crowded many students ....OMG !

No place for me ...T.T and hot ...

Today, got a competition for mass comm in school ...

TA 10 got the champion of the press conference ...

I dunno Why TA 19 din get ... because i think TA 19 have done well in this competition ...

aikzz...Kelvin , don give up ... next sem can do better in other subject ...!

After that , i went to pasar malam with Chung( my crazy roomate)...

I settle my dinner with a curry chicken rice and a pack of saimailou ais ...

All add up just RM 4.60 only ...

At night , i had gambling with Sue and Chung for a while...

Because we are damn bored tonight ... ( we had a benign gambling )

Then ... ,

i continue to chit-chat with my friends ... ^^ till now ...

I got to sleep soon ...

Good night , everyone !

Sweet dream i wish ...*****

Tomorow will be a better day ...

- ^ ^ -

Simply taking the photo ... =.=

He ~

Lolxxx...

He ?

Yes ! He is my netfriend...

His nickname is - Warrior ...

......=.=......

i also dunno why he wanna to call this name ?

He ~~~ hmmm ... 90's boy...

Pic ? He is shy to give ...

Playing basketball ... playing piano ( admire ) ... and ......

Ohya !! He is single now ...

Who are interested, can contact me ... can introduce for them ...

haha... kidding ...warrior ...

He is a nice guy of course ... he hate drinking beer and smoking !!

He always say NO to all this such things ...haha...

Overall, he is a tall ( taller than me ) , and good guy ...

^^ ...

( check it out , warrior ! )

this all what i can copy ...=.=

Nightmare ~

What happened to me ?

I had nightmare every night recently ...

It makes me sleep disorder ...

I cant sleep well ... and the nightmare is related with people around me ...

It is terrible and horrible ... all scene are bad for me ...

I really thought im watching movie in nightmare ...

Thats is terrible if it continued happen to me ...

I gonna be CRAZY !!

ARHHHH !!!

I don want let it be serious !

I want sleep well ...

I need sweet dream ...

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hot Night !

A damn hell-fired hot tonight ...
I cant sleep even i naked ...
I don't know what is happening ...
like hell on earth ...
Chung , i think you are not sick ... maybe im the sick one ...
I cant sleep now ... almost 5am already ...
OMFG !
come on ~, tomorow i got many class start on 8am till 5.30pm ...
i sure will sleep in the class ... T.T
if i sleep now ... of course i cant wake up on 7.am !
Shit ... ! my face got many pimples already ...
I cant keep my face in perfect mode till cny ...
somemore 2 weeks ... cny is coming ... !
I need my face be better !!
Sleep early and drink more water ~~
Haiz ... i think that is impossible to sleep early ...
=.= ......

What I Need ?!

What i need ?!

I really need a car ... !

Is very unconvenient if no car for me ...

Add on the stupid fucking bus driver always not on time ...

Make me fed up to take bus to go to school ...

If i have a car ... i can scheduled for my time ...

No need to accommodate myself to the bus schedule ...

And i no need to beg others to fetch me go to school ...

i hate the feeling ... Need to see others phiz ...

When i have a car ?

I cant endure this anymore !

Dad , i really need a car ! pls ~~~ Give me a car as soon as possible ... ! im begging ... T.T

(God bless me ~~~ )

I have to do revision now ... Is time to be a hard-working guy ...

Rain belt . rain day .

Lazybones Thinking ~

Haha...

Sunday ...

What i did ?

Of course need to relax for a moment ...

Hmmm ...

Sometimes ...

I feel that ...

LAZY IS X LAZY...

LAZY = RELAX ...

Lazy is let everyone take a rest ... to take a breath ...

Do you think so ?

Even so busy...

Rest for a while ... Take a breath ... Continue to busy ...

is a nice break ...^^

hmmm ...

Lazy is Relax ... is my theory ... my idea ...

Im always take myself in relax mode ...

so that my life will not so irksome and bored ...

Life is X a Job ...

Relax and Waiting for next mission ...

(i hope my uncle can be alright and recovery swiftly ... )

~ Good Night ~

Latest Diary ...

Thats Me ...
The latest photo ...

2009 / 01 /09 ...

Always the same ...

Cant lose anymore !!

I cant lose anymore !!

I really cant lose anymore !!

Everyone here must think that why im so stupid ...

Why i want to compare with others ...

i got a friend asked me. Why don give yourself set a target ? why must compare with others ?

There is no WHY and there is no answer...

maybe im think that compare with others as my target ...

To win over ... is just my target ...

My friend said me i had change alot now ...

Said that im an emotional guy now and different with last time ...

Am i changed ? lolxxx...is just me ...

Im think that everyone not so deep-felt to know who i am ...

Even though my friends , family or anyone who know me ...

What im try to say that is i know who am i ... and i know what im doing now ...

My friends trying to describe me sometimes ... they are not so clearly about me ...

And im so difficult to discribe with them ... sometimes i cant use any words to describe ...

I don't understand how to describe ... But im clearly know who i am ...

I lose many thing since i was young ...

I hate the feeling ...

I really hate the feeling ...

even my confidence i also to lose out ...

And now i be more cowardice ...

Thats all for tonight ...

~Good Night ~

the end of the movie of 2008 ; 2009 new episode is coming..

A new episode of my life movie is coming...
my new life in 2009 !! The Title is "Change My Life , Change My Luck "
haha....the title is quite stupid ..i think...
anyway , is a theme for me , myself...

2008 was ending ... What i have done is 2008 ?
eat , sleep , play , and somemore..? Ohhya ! shopping...
studying...i don't think i did it well...so, im so sorry to my dad and mom...sorry for them...
2008 ....i had many many and many unhappy matter....what can i say that is unhappy 60% and happy 40% in a whole year of 2008....
2008 the old episode ... will be keep in my memory... 2009 a new film of my life in 2009...
everyone also is a director of own movie....have own style, own movie....
everyone also has character in every movie...

life such as a movie...movie is act out from our life...

anyway, 2009 do my best and keep on going my target...
come on ! i can do it....a..s...w..e...l..l...~~~

just now kaigor argue with me..
both of us like small kids...haha
always like that...
wish he work hard in his working and be manager someday...^^

and

wish my all friends will be happy and all da best for them !!!^^

dunno what i want to write d....overall..., ALL DA BEST FOR EVERYONE I KNOW !! ^^
GAMBATEH !!

What you said and im NOT !

What you said...

but im not....

hate others say me like that...

what the fuck you say and call and im not...

im disagree what you said...

i feel i become more rude and dull recently...

what you said and shut up...

don say any words that im mad ...

keep your mouth shut and don fucking the hell words infront of me...

im so endure as well now....

don make me hit you...

im not too fine with it...

you better know the next step you need to do!!

GOD bless you...~

A different study lifestyle and christmas eve T.T

i had a horrible and terrible tired week...
a totally diffirent lifestyle ...
every day need to presentation with formal ...
OMFG ! my formal shirt not enough for it...i need to buy formal shirt and my formal pants for future use...
i had my presentation last wednesday and i had a praise from lecturer ...im so happy...because this is the first time praise by lecturer in my individual section presentation...^^
this week..i had writing for mass comm presentation also..."press conferences" ...i had put alot of effort on it...and i didn't sleep just because of it...i prepared all the tools and decoration things...
is damn tired for me....shit...!! and i went to presentation without a full rehearsal and one source makes me stress is i have to get ready with the question from media group in press conferences... im worry they will play a trick on my group...but finally they asked the question is simple for me....~.~ and in the same time i had a good comment from lecturer...^^ Thanks God~~

After that, i went back and sleep a whole night....then celebrated wei chung's birthday with him... and then, i went to 21st drinking with my friends...we discuss about ghost...is quite scary and fright...we drink and chit-chat until 3am and i was badly drunk and overnight in my friend's house...really shit..!

and the next day ( yesterday) i woke up on 8.30am then went back to my house and continue to sleep...is damn blur that time....and then i went to school on 11.3am but the class is ended on 12pm...i just went there and take an attendance...=.=

after that, i have to start rushing my web pages deisgn assignment...is quite challenging for grace khoo and me...i have to edit images up to 30 images for her in one night...but i havent finish yet now...continue tomorow...because i have no mood to edit images...im doing the assignment until now and no christmas countdown for me....everyone went to celebrate and somebody having a trip to genting or singapore... left me alone in a room and rushing for assignment...! FUCK ! and Bull Shit ! what the hell christmas eve i had !? And tomorow need to continue my assignment...! Friday morning i have to go back earlier and i need a meet with my sister ... don't know how she looks like and what the souvenir she bought for me from Bali and Sarawak...i think is useless for me as well...

Yesterday is Wei Chung's Birthday !! i wish he had a wonderful birthday and merry christmas !

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL !!!!!

Good Night and Have a nice dream ~~~

Emo

i feel that im emotional recently...
my friends telling jokes or laughing...
but i still have a smile...or just give a response...
i don't know what the hell is happened about me...
im rushing my assignment recently....
have some conflict with my classmate...
is suppose coorperate well....but the result is different...
i don't like the feeling with conflict...and lying people...
but i cant control the matter...but it is over...
well...im not trust to anyone in my class now..
just can believe myself....wanna be bad or good guy in class..?
just checking their action and planning the next step what should i do...

very emo and emo recently....
Don't like to talk, don't like to laugh...
juat like a dark cloud around me....
help me..~~~~