I cant sleep well ..
I got one more try ..
A last chance later ..
im so struggling about that ..
But i know the chance rate is low .. <10%
But i still need to try .. i have to try to appeal ..
The last chance .. my last hope ..
i do not tell my dad about that because i don't want him
disappointed again ..
All i have to swallow and restrain oneself ..
After this , i just accept what i got and give up ..
everyone will go to register later .. But me?
still struggling to appeal ..
I have to put down all my pride later ..
This is what i unlike .. but i still have to do ..
I accept my poor luck ..
I accept every bad things happened to me ..
I accept the result i got ..
I accept what God give me ..
This is what i can do ..
Follow the flow as my friend said ..
more effort, less expectation as sister said ..
Im mad to face all this .. But i still want to face ..
Im tired to settle all problem .. But i still need to settle ..
i need more endurance than others ..
to accept who im ...
Even though i put more and more effort ..
but still the same ..
on the other hand ,
outsider will think that im playful but actually not ..
This is what im hurt and i hate ..
i really hate misunderstand ..
Smiling everyday but different inside ..
Have to stand up and walk my long journey ..
Be tough to alive ..!
- good luck everyone , happy reopen school -