Result < 10%

I cant sleep well ..

I got one more try ..

A last chance later ..

im so struggling about that ..

But i know the chance rate is low .. <10%

But i still need to try .. i have to try to appeal ..

The last chance .. my last hope ..

i do not tell my dad about that because i don't want him

disappointed again ..

All i have to swallow and restrain oneself ..

After this , i just accept what i got and give up ..

everyone will go to register later .. But me?

still struggling to appeal ..

I have to put down all my pride later ..

This is what i unlike .. but i still have to do ..

I accept my poor luck ..

I accept every bad things happened to me ..

I accept the result i got ..

I accept what God give me ..

This is what i can do ..

Follow the flow as my friend said ..

more effort, less expectation as sister said ..

Im mad to face all this .. But i still want to face ..

Im tired to settle all problem .. But i still need to settle ..

i need more endurance than others ..

to accept who im ...

Even though i put more and more effort ..

but still the same ..

on the other hand ,

outsider will think that im playful but actually not ..

This is what im hurt and i hate ..

i really hate misunderstand ..

Smiling everyday but different inside ..

Have to stand up and walk my long journey ..

Be tough to alive ..!

- good luck everyone , happy reopen school -